Blessings

I heard this song a few weeks ago and it is one that has become my heart song lately.  After all that this world seems to be going through lately, there are so many people asking why.  I seem to hear it on a daily basis, not just about Japan or other natural disasters, but about everyday life. 
*Why Japan
*Why cancer
*Why my child
*Why my marriage
*Why my health
*Why ME?
*Why. . .

I'm not saying God "causes" all of these things to happen.  Please know that I don't believe that nor am I trying to make this a post that would bring forth all the "God made it happen" opinions. 

However, when I heard the chorus of this song, it made me re-think all the disappointments, hurts, trials, times in my life I just couldn't grasp the "why me" part.  What is true is that I DID make it through to the other side.  I have not failed to overcome the disappointments, trials, hurts, pain, loss that I have been faced with so far in my life.  There were times I felt alone like no one understood what I was going through.

I listened to this song and it all made sense to me. (Not that it didn't before, but it was articulated so well in this song).  All the sleepless nights I have spent worrying, crying over different moments in my life, I can now look back on them and see how I have grown.  I can now see that I was not alone at all.  That He was right there all the time.  And I am a much better person for all those times. 

"What if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise"

I know for me. . . I'm so thick headed and stubborn, sometimes I just have to be hit with a 2x4 to even grasp the lesson in life that I am meant to be learning at this time.  Sometimes I have to go through things so that I can come out on the other side a better person.

Thank you God, even for the trials, even for the disappointments.  What I know, is that the recent world events have certainly brought me to my knees in a spirit of prayer that I haven't been in for a while. Thank you God for creating in me a person who knows where my strength comes from!